Oh My Darling,
I’m not sure why Cindy’s leaving to head home hit me so hard today. At first I thought it was the thought of your best bud leaving and perhaps not seeing you again that made the goodbye so overwhelming. As I sit watching you rest from the exhausting and yet exhilarating whirlwind of the last couple of days, I see a repose that I’m concerned will become all too familiar to me.
Whatever the cause, today is one of those “weepy” days. It’s a day where I am very much in touch with your frailty, the imminence of your passing and the depth of my love for you.
Last night you so wanted to ride around looking at Christmas lights in the golf cart, knowing full well that you would pay a painful price for the experience. We did love them, you did and are paying a price for the experience. As you so aptly said, “Sometimes quality of life costs something.” So true, my darling. So true.
Like you, I cherish the memories we are making. I want to have as much of you to hold onto as we move into our future.
I know that I am rambling, so let me wrap this up; I love you more than life. It warms my heart to see the love others have for you and to hear them recount the vast and varied ways in which you have touched their lives.
Rest well darling, for in a few days we start again with some granddaughters we both adore. As you rest, I am finding that place where, when the process gets ugly and hard, we can look and find the beauty of God’s Providence and the perfection of his ways. It is in this place that I will find my rest. It is here that I shall find my repose.
Love,
Brad
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Dear Pam,
Words cannot express the love and great memories I have of you in my families life. From riding in my first convertible with the cool car phone, to the parties and sleep overs while in jr high and high school. You and Brad were so loving and caring for all of us kids at school and church.
You and Brad sold me land to allow mom and I to build and move into a brand new home. You were there for me, as always, and helped me decorate it. You told mom, he knows what he likes, but you were still there helping guide me through the process. It turned out exactly how I wanted it too.
You and Brad had a great relationship with mom and she loved spending time with you guys. You guys would pick her up and take her to your home for week long visits and even brought her to Florida for a visit. She loved you both dearly and I thank you for always making mom feel welcome, loved, and special..
Even though I am saddened that death is near, I know you have lived a long and amazing life, and left a legacy for many to follow. I love you Pam more than words can possibly say.. You have fought the fight and finished the race and I know when you get to heaven these words will be spoken- Enter now my good and faithful servant..
Love you ❤️
Ashley
P.S. – Give my mom and dad big hugs for me.